addicted to
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection




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caught a glimpse of one of those beijing olympic ads on tv.. the short documentary-like clips.. haha where they like feature a sport or an aspect of chinese culture. i caught the tri one! though their predictions were kinda duh-. haha they predict that snowy and kahfedelt (spelling?lol) will win.. but that's so duh cos they were the commonwealth games winners. haha. fernandes! okay i'm quite outdated too.. since snowsill= snowy then fernandes should = ferny. hawhaw.

BEHIND ON MY REV SCHED :( boohoo and i was supp to do more work post-dinner but then we got home so late :( and i stank so i showered and now i'm sleepy.

oh well. mummy and terry are coming home tmr! hah maybe shld suggest to daddy that we go there early then i can go study at the airport. i totally love the fengshui in the school reading room tho. haha. cos like everyone's so quiet and i feel like i'm in an exam hall. class bench is not too bad when there's no one around.. and the sky's pitch black. hahah.

was reading about detraining.. (cos i'm wondering what on earth is happening to my body right now haha) it's quite scary to feel so many odd changes going on and not know what they are. so i decided i should read up more. yes. so anyway. apparently.. my body has become a lot less efficient cos i am burning glucose instead of carbs when i run. which might explain why i get giddy and tired when i'm running.. plus my muscles are shrinking and something about amino acids being distributed to the rest of my body?? hahah. but muscles shrinking is not good cos that means lower metabolic rate and that means i don't burn as much as i used to. heh need to start adapting to my new sedentary lifestyle...

i wish i could speed up the rest process cos i'm dying to get started on my work again. ahhah. strange but i find it awfully interesting to read through stuff i hardly understood last year and find that i suddenly understand it now. it's like ironing a really crumpled shirt... all the creases are my chunks of imperfect knowledge (ahha imperf competition, i am reminded of econs), and just like ironing, studying is straightening out the creases! i.e. doing away with my doubts. it's interesting. really. ahha. but stressful when i realise that TIME IS RUNNING OWT.

boohoo. should go sleep now.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

it's the passion that drives you